TO FORGET

i must admit that for the past few days you were able to make me smile. it's not everyday that i smile in front of the monitor. but i must admit you did. and to think you're making me admit things.

we are strangers. yet we did take steps to get to know each other more. i couldn't blame you if you had my thoughts mistaken for being brutish and unkind. i didn't allow myself to show who i am. i can't find any reason to. especially to a stranger. i mean, what's the point? as if it would matter. we're just mere chatters on cyberspace.

for the past days that you showered me with sweet stupid remarks and point blank criticisms, i developed the yearning of going online just to chat with you. how clingy could i get. as much as i try not to be, i still am. i still mimic the same old ways of emotional attachment, even here.

i don't want to play games. that's why i always reacted harshly with each and every joke you throw at me. but with one argument you were able to make me cry. and you decided to end this so-called friendship because you think i am utterly selfish and gobbled up with pride.

i don't mean to be sexist, but i think it's not really proper for men to make girls cry.