the princess and the bitch

Dear Cheska,

Hey, how's it been? It's like almost four months since we last met, and that was during your lola's wake. Musta ka na, dear? Alam mo yun, ever since I graduated college hindi na tayo nagkakasama. Tapos when I went to law school pa madalang na rin tayo mag-usap. I guess I was too preoccupied with my stuff, and I'm sorry if I don't get to hang out with you na. I miss you a lot alam mo yun. I miss our secret pig-outs at the back of my car whenever we are distressed, of course pati na rin yung mga shopping escapades natin kahit ako lang yung bili ng bili ng stuff. Hihi. Anyway, grad ka na ba? Kasi wala na talaga akong balita sayo. I really do wish that you get to finish your studies na. Diba you said you're gonna go to law school din? I want that para maging magkasama ulet tayo.

I'm in New York right now for my summer vacation. Pero I'm gonna go home na rin sa June 9. Do you want any pasalubong ba? Just tell me so I can get some stuff for you. Hey, lamo, something happened pala. My Hunny and I broke up na. :( Just the other night. We had a long talk on the phone and he told me na we can't work things out anymore. Kasi daw we have a lot of differences that will never meet. I soooo cried after we talked, kasi during our conversation I held myself back from crying. Ayoko marinig nya na umiyak ako. But I do miss him so much na. Di nya alam how much I love him. He doesn't have another girl daw sabi ng friends namin. Pero was it my fault ba na I gave him too much pressure? Kasi nga diba parehom kaming nasa law school? I don't want to be like a dumb blonde naman just to meet his needs. Pero Cheska, I really do want him back. Can you help me ba with this?

Let's talk more when I get back okay? I love you dear.

!@#$%^

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Dearest,

Wag mo muna pakelaman ang tungkol sa graduation ek ek ko dahil ikaw tong may problema. I'll graduate in time.

Anyway. So nagbreak na kayo. Well if you really do want him back then talk to him as soon as you come back here. You two can arrive at a better settlement once you talk about your breakup in person, and not just over the phone, tuladi ni Heart at Jericho. Ano ba kasi ang exact reason kung baket kayo nag-break? It can't be just merely irreconcilable differences, unless specified yung mga arguments nyo. About the pressure thing, you know I've been through that and I feel you. But sometimes you do have to make such sacrifices for the sake of love, and in your case, your pride was at stake. You being much smarter took its toll on his ego. Hehe. But the sacrifice should be two-way din. He should've let go of some of his ego to support you. And since this happened, I guess he care more about his ego and macho image than you. To put it bluntly, he loves himself more than he loves you.

Nakatsamba ka lang na first boyfriend mo kamukha ng crush mong si Jake Cuenca. Pero I've got news for you. Break na rin si Jake at ang GF nyang si Roxanne Guinoo. Pagkakataon mo na para umentra. Di nga lang law student si Jake Cuenca. Nyahahahahha.

Come back here. Bring me a sack of chocolates to boost my serotonin levels, Hunter S. Thompson's Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, a ream of alhambra cigars, tanning spray, and a pair of Chuck Taylor sneakers color pink size 8.5. Ikaw na magconvert sa American size.

Thanks. I'm such a user.

Cheska.

P.S. Do you actually consider me your friend given that I am so obnoxious? Haha. I miss you.